I am down because I am downswinging.

Its been some time since I had a major downswing. To be quite fucking honest I think downswings are bullshit. There will always be spots where you could have maximized value, not bluffed, or found a fold which would have made you money. It is quite sick when all you want is to succeed at something yet you continue to fail(have losing sessions). I am not ashamed to admit I am not playing my best obviously and will be dropping down to 1/2 for 10K hands to regain my confidence. One positive thing to take away from this little dip in my graph is just that, its just a dip.

Poker is a sick game.

I am not using sick as a slang for cool either. Poker can be more of an emotional roller coaster then a relationship. Poker can drive a person insane, specifically me. I have no clue what is happening right now. I am on this stupid dry spell at the tables as of 2 or 3 nights ago. Its quite interesting too. I decide poker is going to be my career and what happens, every fucking thing goes to hell. I had a 23k BR at the start of the week which is now 18.5k though I did ship 1k to AE so its only 10 BI's. I know there is some spew too and that drives me mad. I need to desperately plug these leaks and get my game back on track. 2/4 is insanity sometimes and to be quite fucking honest the games suck donkey cock on weekend nights. Its like 5 regs to 1 fish. Also the regs are just dicks sometimes. Whatever, enough bitching. I will own their souls.

On a happy note I think I have my tilt insanely under control. I have developed a real bad habit lately though and that is checking results mid-session. I will never and I mean never do it again.

Two sick hands and an update.

April was awesome for me poker wise and May has been slow. I had to wrap up college and decided to not play while I did so. I have managed to log a few nice winning sessions but only played maybe 15 hours this month. That being said summer is here so no more classes. It is looking like this will be a perminent summer too. AEJONES experience has been great for my game as well and I look forward to grinding again so i can really start to put alot of his theory into use. Hopefully i will begin to update here a little more and look for some theory posts in the near future. Here are two river bluffs shoves i ran. The 1st was vs the infamous BertKC whom is also a part of the AE thing thus he read my soul based on what we have learned from AE. Sick fucking props on the call. 2nd hand was vs an aggro TAG who i knew could be c/r light. Thing is if i do get it in on the flop I am 100% behind even to a high card imo. Icheck the turn because if I get double c/r I believe I will be commited. By the river is hand looks like air or a very marginal made hand which cant stand much heat. He hollywooded for a sec to save face and then pitched.

Hand 1:

$2/$4 No Limit Holdem
5 players
Converted at weaktight.com


Stacks:

UTG	Cephus Lives	($453.00)
CO	SinkThe2Boat	($120.00)
BTN	bertkc	($529.40)
SB	7Francky7	($643.90)
BB	Hero	($697.00)

Pre-flop: ($6, 5 players) Hero is BB

2 folds, bertkc raises to $8, 1 fold, Hero raises to $32, bertkc calls $24

Flop: ($66, 2 players)
Hero bets $44, bertkc calls $44

Turn: ($154, 2 players)
Hero checks, bertkc checks

River: ($154, 2 players)
Hero checks, bertkc bets $130, Hero goes all-in $621, bertkc calls $323.4

Final Pot: $1060.80
bertkc shows:
Hero shows:

bertkc wins $1057.8 ( won +$528.4 )
Hero wins $167.6 ( lost -$529.4 )


Hand 2:

$2/$4 No Limit Holdem
6 players
Converted at weaktight.com


Stacks:

UTG	BESULLO	($381.10)
UTG+1	DataBill	($201.40)
CO	Hero	($436.00)
BTN	TDIris	($405.30)
SB	nonthinking	($400.00)
BB	ShipItGGTHX	($639.90)

Pre-flop: ($6, 6 players) Hero is CO

2 folds, Hero raises to $12, 2 folds, ShipItGGTHX calls $8

Flop: ($26, 2 players)
ShipItGGTHX checks, Hero bets $20, ShipItGGTHX raises to $65, Hero calls $45

Turn: ($156, 2 players)
ShipItGGTHX checks, Hero checks

River: ($156, 2 players)
ShipItGGTHX bets $115, Hero goes all-in $359, ShipItGGTHX folds

Final Pot: $386

Hero wins $627 ( won +$191 )
ShipItGGTHX lost -$192.00