On the move.

I have decided that I will bring my positive thinking and poker blogs together. I will be blogging from here on at here

Noeledge

These are a few quotes stolen from my other blogs.

"Stop dwelling on the way anyone else makes you feel and realize that its YOU feeling it, therefore you have the ability to feel differently. Take notice of what and how you feel and look for the good in everything. Feel great! I dont care if you have to carry a photo of a fucking puppy dog around and take it out and look at it every 5 seconds just find good feelings and dream big. Feel your dreams coming to fruition and they will. Stop dwelling on bullshit and lack of whatever it is you so desire. Start feeling success and prosperity and it will reveal itself. Stop looking and start feeling."


"Remember one thing. No matter where you are in this life you chose to be there and you can choose better or worse. If you are stoked to be where you are then you are most likely doing it right. Choose to be happy and enjoy every little thing you can."

Wow!!! I was a pretty positive guy. I have been basically sucking at poker since I began living with My girlfriend and son, they are not to blame but there has to be a connection right? I honestly think the biggest barrier has been me. I have put this pressure on myself to produce results so that we can live the good life. truth be told we are pretty fucking happy and have everything we need at this moment. I honestly feel like I have been a level one player since July. I simply hope for collers to be there for me and am a TAG bot.

My last post was definitely extreme but wtf I am extreme. My roll is 8600 which means I have 10BI left for 1/2 and if I drop to 6500 I will drop down to 100NL. <--- This wont happen!!! Its insane what reading through old blog posts will do. I read some of the poker related stuff and wonder what happened to me. I use to be a thinking player. There are moments of brilliance to but something has definitely stopped working. Hopefully the Duck Slayer can fix that.

Cue the white flag

I guess it is time to start searching the want adds. Just got through with another miserable session in which I ran like ass and I guess it could be debated that I spewed off 2BI's or more. Thanks Btimm for the positive words but honestly I cant keep my head up anymore. Poker was a game I loved because of all it afforded me but no longer do I enjoy it. Boo hoo me I know but the truth is I dont get it. It feels like the poker gods hate me and I cant catch a break. Basically I have decided to grind the year out and then start seeking a real job. Oh and my BR has hit an all time low as well. Part of me wants to say fuck it and stay at 1/2 but I guess I should drop down to .5/1. My son thinks I should be a chef, cooking school here I come.

Losing hope!!!!!

Seriously poker has become so discouraging. Maybe the simple truth is I dont have what it takes mentally to deal with the ups and downs of this game. During the sickest break-even stretch ever I feel like I have slowly become very resentful towards the game. I have begun to doubt the skill element and feel like luck plays a role. Obviously we all know this not to be the case but the truth is there is some hidden random luck. Take this hand for instance.

$1/$2 No Limit Holdem
6 players
Converted at weaktight.com


Stacks:

Hero (UTG)		($238.20)
UTG+1		($183.10)
CO		($303.64)
BTN		($206.95)
SB		($110.31)
BB		($396.65)

Pre-flop: ($3, 6 players) Hero is UTG

Hero raises to $8, 2 folds, BTN calls $8, SB calls $7, 1 fold

Flop: ($26, 3 players)
SB checks, Hero checks, BTN checks

Turn: ($26, 3 players)
SB checks, Hero bets $16, BTN calls $16, SB folds

River: ($58, 2 players)
Hero checks, BTN bets $38, Hero raises to $214.20, BTN calls $144.95

Final Pot: $455.15
BTN shows:
Hero shows:

BTN wins $420.40 ( won +$213.45 )
Hero wins $31.25 ( lost -$206.95 )
SB lost -$8.00


Did I play it optimally I dont know but is there anyway I dont go broke? I like villains play alot but fuck me he only gets my monies when it comes QQ,AA,QA and nothing more. Then you have all the sweet flips and coolers which i continue to come out on the ugly side. I turned 3 bdfd today in AI situations for stacks and bricked all 3. Twice I had AK vs AK the third time was AK vs KK. Obviously win these and I am not making this post but that is stupid. There has to be more then coolers and bad luck that is taking its toll. TBH my biggest hurdle has been playing vs thinking players. I have been trying harder and harder to shy away from emoption and simply play their range and mine.


I apologize for the rant but it was something I had to do. I have been so frustrated today by my sessions. Twice I feel like I am playing great poker only to lose 2 stacks at the end in nearly unavoidable spots. Tonight it was QQ vs AK and set vs set. Yeah poker. Looks like I might be joining the working world in 09.

New chair

I realized yesterday that my chair was terrible and it was time for a new one. I went to staples to buy a different one I had researched online but when I sat in this one I had to have it. funny thi9ng is it was 90 bucks cheaper and I didnt even know it. If you sit in a chair that you are not comfortable in and play I highly suggest an upgrade. I cant even explain it but I felt so calm and controlled at the tables today.

My session was one of the most boring I had ever played though and I managed to lose just under a BI with the biggest loser equaling $30. I just never got in any favorable spots and played 19/15 with a low went to SD.

Another thing I am now doing is timing my sessions using this which is awesome. I use the gong sound which is quite pleasant. Anyways just wanted to rant about my chair and the gayest session I have played in awhile. I was literally bored and checking to see if my session was over. Luckily I got a few hands at the end which were nice.

New schedule

Hours available: 9am-4pm, 8pm-12pm; 11 hours

Desired:
-5-6 hours of play per day or 30 hours a week
-30-60minutes of review/study per day.
-Daily exercise

Monday: Poker =3hrs
9am- Gym, 10am Meeting, 12pm Poker, 1:30pm 30 min break, 2pm Poker

Tuesday: Poker = 4.5hrs
9am Meeting, 10:30am Bike ride, 12pm -1:30pm Poker 30 min break, 2pm-3:30pm Poker, 8pm-9:30pm Poker

Wednesday: Poker =6hrs
9am Gym, 10am Study, 11am -12:30pm Poker, 15 min break, 12:45pm- 2:15pm Poker 30 min break 2:45pm 4:15pmPoker, 8pm-9:30pm Poker

Thursday: Poker = 6hrs
9am Bike ride, 10:30am Coaching 12pm-1:30pm Poker 30 min break 2pm-3:30pm Poker
8pm-9:30pm Poker 15min break 9:45pm-11:15pm


Friday: Poker = 7.5hrs
9am Gym, 10am Study, 11am -12:30pm Poker, 15 min break, 12:45pm- 2:15pm Poker 30 min break 2:45pm 4:15pmPoker, 8pm-9:30pm Poker 15min break 9:45pm-11:15pm

Saturday: Poker= 1.5hrs
9am-11:30am Poker

Sunday: Poker= 1.5hrs
9am-11:30 Poker

Look below for Thursday wrap up.

Rough day mixed with excitment.

I put in 7 hours with 1 -4BI session and 1 +1BI session and a super gay break even session. Overall I think I played more then half the session without my A-game which I am not pleased with. I have decided I must revise my schedule to make my sessions 90 minutes rather then 120. Sadly enough I looked at my results since July and I am on a 178k hand break even stretch which is really fucking gay. Obviously this has alot to do with me and alot less to do with being 13k below EV over that stretch(maybe?).

The reality is my break even stretch has came since moving my fiance and son in as well as making the decision to be a full time pro. I believe my approach to the pro thing has been less then optimal and I need to put some time and energy into that alone. The thing is I used to just play mainly when I felt up for it and had alot of alone time to study. I got a ton of prime time hours as well which I lack now. I dont think that this should mean I cant beat the game though and I am happy to announce I have found my coach. See Duck Blog on right.

Eric is an awesome dude who plays the same games I do except higher and worked through the ranks recently. Also the fact that we are friends prior to the coaching should make things come together quicker. Granted i am in no rush and plan on making him my coach for months to come as we both move up.

As gay as my day felt to only be down 3BI at the end of it all is pretty sweet. I ran several 4 bet bluffs which got blown up. This leads me to believe that folks truly dont 3bet all that light or I have some poor timing. Also it was one of those days where if I had JJ-KK a over card to my pair fell on the flop and I encountered resistance. I did manage to win a 200BB pot which was LOL.

I had just doubled through this villain in a 3bet pot where I held T9 on T82cc and banked a flush on the turn. He held QQ and played it really fucking bad. Because of stack depth I decide to make my c/r large and it maybe should have been bigger. the turn does suck as he can hold 87 but I am going busto all day with the given history.

$1/$2 No Limit Holdem
5 players
Converted at weaktight.com


Stacks:

UTG		($400.00)
CO		($430.25)
BTN		($412.90)
Hero (SB)		($447.60)
BB		($441.00)

Pre-flop: ($3, 5 players) Hero is SB

UTG raises to $7, 2 folds, Hero calls $6, 1 fold

Flop: ($16, 2 players)
Hero checks, UTG bets $10, Hero raises to $50, UTG calls $40

Turn: ($116, 2 players)
Hero bets $100, UTG raises to $343, Hero calls $243

River: ($802, 2 players)

Final Pot: $802
Hero shows:
UTG shows:

Hero wins $799 ( won +$399 )
UTG lost -$400.00


I also ran a river c/r bluff which I think was semi interesting. Villain is 29/22/2.6 and I opt to join the party since I have relative position. This is a good board to cbet and I see no value in c/r or leading thus I c/c. When he checks back the turn I assume I am good. At 1st glance I was like yeah river now I get to c/f but then I thought about it. I can have a GSSD or an OESD here as well as a hand like QJ where as villain has at best Qx but most likely he is bluffing. He may even be betting a J thin which would be real stupid imo. Not so sure of my bet sizing but i felt like I want it to look like I want a call.

$1/$2 No Limit Holdem
6 players
Converted at weaktight.com


Stacks:

UTG		($245.15)
UTG+1		($679.35)
CO		($180.80)
BTN		($407.45)
SB		($303.10)
Hero (BB)		($207.45)

Pre-flop: ($3, 6 players) Hero is BB

UTG raises to $7, 3 folds, SB calls $6, Hero calls $5

Flop: ($21, 3 players)
SB checks, Hero checks, UTG bets $15, SB folds, Hero calls $15

Turn: ($51, 2 players)
Hero checks, UTG checks

River: ($51, 2 players)
Hero checks, UTG bets $33, Hero raises to $94, UTG folds

Final Pot: $178

Hero wins $174.50 ( won +$58.50 )
SB lost -$7.00
UTG lost -$55.00

Almost 6 hours=$877.24...

best part is I ran above EV (not that I care). It is funny how I hate running below but now I am like wait a second does running above mean I am making bad decisions.

Today was a hectic day at the tables with me going up up up to 1k and then back down down down to near even only to turn it around and end with a very uneventful/gay night session. I nearly booked 6 hours but I am not overly concerned that I didnt.

As for improvement goes I have made two choices in that department, 1)I am going to get me some coaching, 2) I am now Hudless. I honestly see a TAG and get emotional when he has position and 3bets me. I do very spewy things based on HUD and need to focus so much more on game flow. I will be 4 tabling obviously. Anyways nailed 2136 hands today in just under 6 hours and am in the green for the month.

This is a major leak of mine. Check calling. I opted to c/c vs a reg on a wet board knowing he is firing here and also that I would check fold here alot. The river is a fold imo.
$1/$2 No Limit Holdem
3 players
Converted at weaktight.com


Stacks:

BTN		($436.05)
Hero (SB)		($207.00)
BB		($299.45)

Pre-flop: ($3, 3 players) Hero is SB

BTN folds, Hero raises to $8, BB calls $6

Flop: ($16, 2 players)
Hero checks, BB bets $11, Hero calls $11

Turn: ($38, 2 players)
Hero checks, BB bets $24, Hero calls $24

River: ($86, 2 players)
Hero checks, BB bets $65, Hero calls $65

Final Pot: $216
Hero shows:
BB shows:

BB wins $214 ( won +$106 )
Hero lost -$108.00



This is another gross spot where I should fold even though I flatted the flop to allow villain to spew. Problem is Ax is a big part of his range and I doubt he DB it on a bluff often.
$1/$2 No Limit Holdem
6 players
Converted at weaktight.com


Stacks:

UTG		($436.80)
UTG+1		($419.95)
Hero (CO)		($232.00)
BTN		($408.40)
SB		($365.55)
BB		($134.10)

Pre-flop: ($3, 6 players) Hero is CO

2 folds, Hero raises to $7, 2 folds, BB calls $5

Flop: ($15, 2 players)
BB bets $15, Hero calls $15

Turn: ($45, 2 players)
BB bets $45, Hero calls $45

River: ($135, 2 players)
BB bets $67.10, Hero calls $67.10

Final Pot: $269.20
BB shows:
Hero shows:

BB wins $265.70 ( won +$131.60 )
Hero lost -$134.10



Now the Hero call of the day. At the time I was sick but i think in retro this is a pretty easy call as villain is repping very little.
$1/$2 No Limit Holdem
6 players
Converted at weaktight.com


Stacks:

UTG		($153.10)
Hero (UTG+1)		($226.00)
CO		($99.97)
BTN		($397.00)
SB		($84.40)
BB		($400.75)

Pre-flop: ($3, 6 players) Hero is UTG+1

UTG raises to $7, Hero raises to $22, 4 folds, UTG calls $15

Flop: ($47, 2 players)
UTG bets $23.50, Hero calls $23.50

Turn: ($94, 2 players)
UTG checks, Hero checks

River: ($94, 2 players)
UTG bets $47, Hero calls $47

Final Pot: $188
UTG shows:
Hero shows:

Hero wins $184.50 ( won +$92 )
UTG lost -$92.50