New outlook.

Time for some fucking hippy shit YO! Please if you read this blog leave a comment so I know. Just want to gain an awareness of how many readers I have. Now back to the hippy shit. My life is poker and when poker is bad my life has been bad. Well my mental state. This doesn't have any positive value or rather in poker terms such thinking is -EV. Though I do love poker and the challenge it provides when it boils down to it I love the money. i love that I found a way to survive financially being my own boss and playing a game I quite enjoy. The honest truth is though the money effects me. 2/4 isn't stable enough for my bankroll,I have a family to take care of. That being said I have devised a new plan of brilliance.

The plan: I am once again moving down to where my roll is proper, 80+ BI's. I will be 6 tabling for 30 hours a week. This alone should provide me with 3-4k of shear rakeback, which alone will be enough to live. I plan on doing this until I have somewhere near 60-80 BI's for 2/4 at which point I will begin slowly moving up. I know I know I swore off 6 tabling but I see no other option. Plus I know in my heart that I am +EV 6 tabling especially if I never auto check anything and take my time with every decision.

The hippy shit: No more results. No more EV. I am just going to play and embrace variance as it comes. Whoever said that thing about you will run worse then you ever thought possible. I believe them though I imagine I could even run worse them I am. The nice thing is August is going to be a crusher.

Life tilt

WOW I suck cock at poker lately. Obviously the cards have not been my friend much lately but I have made some very spewy plays too. Allowing a bad run to lead to playing bad is the worst fucking thing possible. I dont really know where this is headed. I dont want to whine about coolers as we all know its simply part of the game. Basically what is boils down to is making the least amount of mistakes as well as playing in a way which causes your opponents to make their own. I am so tired of thinkling inside this poker box. I have become this fucking robot playing two cards based on their inherent strength and not on the table dynamics and situation at hand.

Again and again

This is poker in a nut shell, we will see the same hands and situations again and again as we play. The strong will create new lines and figure out their opponents lines in order to maximze there equity and minimize loss. I started July ready to rock and came out the gates strong only to make a run at 6 tabling and experience the swingiest poker yet. It wasnt 100% do to variance but more the number of tables and the style I was playing. I will be the 1st to admit it I am a NIT. I like playing tight and I hate swings. Of course they are going to happen but I think I can avoid some of the bigger ones by playing a little less spewy preflop. Unless I finish super strong, which I will try, July might be the 1st losing month of 2008. I know I say it time and time again but this time I mean it. Look for regular blog posts from here on out. Actually I hope to post 1-2 hands a day and hopefully you can leave me commenst.